Pinky, are you pondering what I'm pondering?

Yesterday morning I awoke from a dream in which I was suddenly 14 again, getting ready to start high school - but with all the memories I've made and knowledge I've gained since then.  My mother announced that she had lost her job, and there was talk that we'd have to move somewhere far away. 

My greatest concern at the moment I woke up was that I needed to make sure I still met Jack.  I think I asked to move to Massachusetts, where he would have been living at the time.  Though, after I woke up, I wondered if the people we were as teenagers would still be attracted to one another in a way that stuck.

I wonder what my life would be like if I had the chance to start over, before I got sick and started having problems with anxiety and depression. Before I began to make ill-advised choices about college and my career path, and especially about some of the boys I really shouldn't have dated.

So of course I woke up wondering the eternal question we all ask ourselves - how would my life have been different if I could go back and make different choices? 

Would I have taken more writing classes and found my creativity earlier? 
Focused on a branch of science that doesn't require strenuous activity (like genetics work in the lab, which I still have fond memories of from college)? 
Better avoided the people that caused me more pain than my growth required? 
Chosen to seek my spiritual community in Maryland when I moved here, rather than desperately clinging to my life in Philly by joining a Philly-based coven?
Would I still be friends/lovers with the same people?  Or even be part of the same communities?

Psychic Development, inspired by YouTube

I've been watching a lot of other folks' videos about understanding and developing your psychic abilities.  I'm feeling particularly inspired by CharlieSaysGo's psychic series and Teal Scott.


Lately I've been pondering how to best start developing my own abilities.  I really feel I need to start by documenting my dreams and psychic visions so that later I can more easily compare the facts to what I experienced, especially when it comes to precognitive experiences.

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Maybe an aside is needed here.  Now, when I say "visions" I don't always mean visual psychic phenomena.  I tend to use this term to refer to receiving information when awake (not a dream).  I mostly receive information via dreams, automatic writing, and clairsentience (just "knowing" when something is true), but I also occasionally hear, see, and feel information.  Feeling/empathy is most common when I'm communicating with the departed.

In the spirit of documenting my dreams and visions, last month I started a dreams & visions journal, wrote about a really vivid dream I had... and haven't touched it since.  So now I'm toying with the idea of making videos about these visions instead, and publishing some or all of them on YouTube. 

How about you folks?  In what ways do you receive psychic information, and what do you do with that information?  Please let me know in the comments!

Snow, and a spectacular Ravens failure

Damn. The Ravens lost to the Patriots today. I was really rooting for my boy Joe Flacco, who went to my alma mater (University of Delaware). They were so close...I can't even believe the kicker blew that last field goal. OMGWTFBBQ.

My friend Dakota and I have decided that if the Giants go to the Superbowl too, we are rioting. BURNINATE THE COUNTRYSIDE.

(For those of you who have no idea what I'm talking about, watch this and giggle. And those of you who do, watch this and giggle and enjoy the throwback to Homestar Runner :)

Anyway, football aside, it snowed yesterday. Well, to be more precise, it snowed, and then we got lots of freezing rain.

This sad little stone swan planter came with the house we're renting.  The sedum growing in it is actually very pretty in the summer.

Last night for the dark moon, I meditated some on the energy of the dark moon and the quiet of a land covered in snow.  It was very peaceful and helped re-energize me after a long, tiring week at work.  Then I got out one of my tarot decks and pulled out the 7 of cups.  Yes, this is the same card I pulled 2 months ago during  a full moon.  I'm still mulling that one over.  I tried asking for more information about that in my dreams, but instead I had a baffling series of dreams about bar fights, a Mexican restaurant called Lupy's (a figment of my imagination who name I remember very clearly), and wolves.  I have no idea.