Today is day 3 of the
Sacred Space Conference! I missed all of day 1 due to a severe migraine mythe Assembly and my job is clearly going nowhere. He said some things I needed to hear, including reminders that it's useless to beat myself up for not being able to juggle so many things in my life. Some of the advice was not so helpful, but gave me ideas. He told me I should make a list of all of the good things about me, which... I am not so comfortable doing, but will think about.
Yesterday was day 2 of the conference. I arrived for the afternoon
classes, and took an interesting class on occult themes in pop culture,
and participated in a ritual for the Morrigan. The latter left me a bit
torn apart, as we had to journey to the underworld, dig deep and face
our inner demons, and speak their names aloud. The Morrigan has been
whispering to me these last few weeks to help me process my anger, so I
knew I needed to go to this before I even arrived at the conference, and
even wore my new
raven earrings.
I suppose I was rewarded for my bravery because in a vision at her
altar, the Morrigan gave me a tool for dealing with my anger - she told
me to give it to her ravens, and they would take it where it needed to
be.
Afterward I had a tarot reading with my friend Eri. We looked at the
question of "where do I go from here/how do I get unstuck?" now that my
spiritual path is diverging from the Assembly and my job is clearly
going nowhere. He said some things I needed to hear, including
reminders that it's useless to beat myself up for not being able to
juggle so many things in my life. Some of the advice was not so
helpful, but gave me ideas. He told me I should make a list of all of
the good things about me, which... I am not so comfortable doing, but
will think about.
Also, there was lots of imagery of portals in the cards. So many portals! Obviously, I have choices to make - which portals do I enter? When do I enter them? Who will I enter them with?
The evening consisted of the New Orleans Voodoo Conjure Dance, which I need to mull over a bit more before posting about it. Suffice to say, it was one of the most fulfilling spiritual experiences I've ever had. Oh ecstatic dance, where have you been all my life?
